So Close

I lie here awake,
crying myself to sleep.
You told me you loved me
and then told me it was chance.

Why tell it only to me?
Why take my heart,
break my heart,
stitch it back together,
only to break it again...

I was so close,
yet so far...

To truly understand that,
to be in my shoes,
I wish on no man.
I am alone in my quest.
My quest for your love.

And, for yet another instant in time,
I thought i was upon it,
Clear and true.
You tricked me into telling you i loved you,
when you don't in return.

I am not mad,
I am not sad,
I've been close before,
and I'll be close again...

Now, you truly know my feelings,
and only you know yours.
Whatever they may be,
know this:

I'll always be your friend.
I'll always be there for you.
and most of all,
I'll always love you.

-Jon-